Sometimes I feel like I have a lot to say, and no where to say it all. This week has been one of those weeks. So, I thought I would write a blog. It's not really my style, but hey, it's a medium to get on my personal soapbox and share some thoughts, but more importantly I thought I would share a piece of my heart, so here it goes.
I have often heard people describe this time of life as the "decade of decisions." I agree with that. It is a time of life where we meet decisions that need to be made. I would like to add to that and say that it is a decade of change. Change is hard to do. No matter who you are, it takes effort to change. It takes time to change. It takes goals to change. So, the big question is, how do we change? What is it that drives us to become different? To act different? Maybe it's forced - forced from actions of others, forced from circumstances, forced from need.
Recently I have been trying to change a lot. Change my attitude, change my appearance, change my fitness level, change my financial status. I want to make sure my life is worthwhile. I want to make sure I leave a dent on the world. I want to make sure I am the best me I can be.
My change is motivated from a belief that there is something more - or it can be said, a faith that I can grow and become more that what I currently am and this faith, that is what has helped me make a difference.
Wednesday, March 2, 2016
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
A fish out of Water
Well, I recently got home from my mission. And as such is expected, I have many feelings. I often heard in my mission that "home life" would be different. That I would struggle adjusting. People made bets on how fast I would adjust, how quickly I would find "the one," how great my life would be, but what they never told me is exactly how it would be.
As I dream I go back to those wonderful places. I see the faces of those I love there in the mission. It's almost as if I am there again. And yet, I wake to a foreign bed, alone, and not at 6:30 in the morning and I'm confused. Then it hits me. Reality. I am back. This IS my life. So, I say my prayers, explain to God where I have been, where I want to go and beg that during the day I can help someone. I go to exercise, trying to keep up that great mission schedule, make breakfast get ready and study.
Now study time used to be my favorite but now it is hard. I have to turn off all the distractions, my cell phone, my Facebook, and find a quiet place to be. Not only that the topics are hard to find. Instead of focusing on how these scriptures will help me teach my investigators I have to learn to apply them to me. To find out what it is that God would like from me.
As I put myself to this task, I find a marked scripture and the memories come flooding back. A tear falls down my cheek as I look up and see the picture of them, the hardest investigator I had, standing in white. I remember the struggle. The many nights I was on my knees begging for them to understand and feel. I remember how it felt to watch them in white enter into the covenant of baptism. My tears turn into a smile as I look at the clock and see it is time to leave for class.
Walking down the street, I see so many happy faces and I just want to stop and contact and talk to them all. However, I must continue on my way. I get into class and a new person sits down next to me. They ask my name and almost as second nature I reach to show them my name tag. Only, it isn't there so I awkwardly say my first name, explain that I have recently got back from my mission and hear the question "did you like it?" I sit and think for a second. Do I answer short with a simple "yes." Or do I explain to them how deeply profound and sacred each experience is? I opt for the yes and then focus on what the teacher is saying. My mind begins to wander again as I see the clock and imagine what I would be doing if I were still there.
Next thing I know class is over and it is time to do homework. I sit down to read the assignment and I realize this does not interest me at all. That I would rather be learning about Jesus and the doctrine of the church. I try to refocus and get the assignment done in just enough time to go hang out with friends.
As I am with them I feel so strange. I missed them a lot. I told my companions all about the fun times we had together. Somehow it begins to seem as if being with them is a dream. It feels just like before and yet different. Have they changed or have I? The suggestions of "fun" that they have no longer interest me. Every conversation I have with them seems to include a story of a fun moment being chased by dogs, going somewhere cool on Pday or the jokes I played on my companions. There are new people there and I wonder, "Are the members? Active? How can the Gospel help them?" They talk about subjects, movies, songs, and experiences I know nothing about. I try to join the conversation, but don't know what to say without being that returned missionary that always talks about their mission. I opt to go home early and sit down on my bed. I have a Facebook message from someone I taught and begin to chat with them. They explain their gratitude and I feel so blessed to have been apart of their journey.
I sit down to read my scriptures again and imagine life in 5 or 10 years. Only the vision is blurry. Who will I be with? What will I be doing? Where will I be? All of these things are unsure. So, I pull out my patriarchal blessing and begin to cry. The mixed emotions of being home and missing the mission seem to collide. I kneel to pray and explain to God all that I feel. He tells me it will be okay. I remember my testimony. I remember that my mission was a training for my life. I receive hope. And then I fall asleep, peacefully dreaming of the future and the past waiting for a new day to begin where I will be living in the present.
Sound familiar? Maybe you just got back from a mission like me? Maybe you know someone who just got home and are wondering how to help them. Well, to be honest, I am not really sure how you can. It is a struggle. You are happy they are back, they are happy they are back, but they will never be able to forget how they felt to be there. They will never forget the wonderful people. So, how can you help them? Make them feel welcome here. In their new life. Allow them to recognize that you are there for them. That you love and care about them. Help them know that they are normal. That they have changed and that they have a great spirit.
Leaving for a mission is hard, but coming home from a mission may be harder. For 18 months or 2 years their life has been dedicated 100% to other people. They did not think about themselves, their future, or their needs hardly at all. Now, being back in the big old world, they feel like fish who has been taken out of water. Flopping around. Trying to find air. Trying to find some escape. Trying to find somewhere they fit in. If this fish does not get new water it will die. So help them. Love them. That is all they need.
As I dream I go back to those wonderful places. I see the faces of those I love there in the mission. It's almost as if I am there again. And yet, I wake to a foreign bed, alone, and not at 6:30 in the morning and I'm confused. Then it hits me. Reality. I am back. This IS my life. So, I say my prayers, explain to God where I have been, where I want to go and beg that during the day I can help someone. I go to exercise, trying to keep up that great mission schedule, make breakfast get ready and study.
Now study time used to be my favorite but now it is hard. I have to turn off all the distractions, my cell phone, my Facebook, and find a quiet place to be. Not only that the topics are hard to find. Instead of focusing on how these scriptures will help me teach my investigators I have to learn to apply them to me. To find out what it is that God would like from me.
As I put myself to this task, I find a marked scripture and the memories come flooding back. A tear falls down my cheek as I look up and see the picture of them, the hardest investigator I had, standing in white. I remember the struggle. The many nights I was on my knees begging for them to understand and feel. I remember how it felt to watch them in white enter into the covenant of baptism. My tears turn into a smile as I look at the clock and see it is time to leave for class.
Walking down the street, I see so many happy faces and I just want to stop and contact and talk to them all. However, I must continue on my way. I get into class and a new person sits down next to me. They ask my name and almost as second nature I reach to show them my name tag. Only, it isn't there so I awkwardly say my first name, explain that I have recently got back from my mission and hear the question "did you like it?" I sit and think for a second. Do I answer short with a simple "yes." Or do I explain to them how deeply profound and sacred each experience is? I opt for the yes and then focus on what the teacher is saying. My mind begins to wander again as I see the clock and imagine what I would be doing if I were still there.
Next thing I know class is over and it is time to do homework. I sit down to read the assignment and I realize this does not interest me at all. That I would rather be learning about Jesus and the doctrine of the church. I try to refocus and get the assignment done in just enough time to go hang out with friends.
As I am with them I feel so strange. I missed them a lot. I told my companions all about the fun times we had together. Somehow it begins to seem as if being with them is a dream. It feels just like before and yet different. Have they changed or have I? The suggestions of "fun" that they have no longer interest me. Every conversation I have with them seems to include a story of a fun moment being chased by dogs, going somewhere cool on Pday or the jokes I played on my companions. There are new people there and I wonder, "Are the members? Active? How can the Gospel help them?" They talk about subjects, movies, songs, and experiences I know nothing about. I try to join the conversation, but don't know what to say without being that returned missionary that always talks about their mission. I opt to go home early and sit down on my bed. I have a Facebook message from someone I taught and begin to chat with them. They explain their gratitude and I feel so blessed to have been apart of their journey.
I sit down to read my scriptures again and imagine life in 5 or 10 years. Only the vision is blurry. Who will I be with? What will I be doing? Where will I be? All of these things are unsure. So, I pull out my patriarchal blessing and begin to cry. The mixed emotions of being home and missing the mission seem to collide. I kneel to pray and explain to God all that I feel. He tells me it will be okay. I remember my testimony. I remember that my mission was a training for my life. I receive hope. And then I fall asleep, peacefully dreaming of the future and the past waiting for a new day to begin where I will be living in the present.
Sound familiar? Maybe you just got back from a mission like me? Maybe you know someone who just got home and are wondering how to help them. Well, to be honest, I am not really sure how you can. It is a struggle. You are happy they are back, they are happy they are back, but they will never be able to forget how they felt to be there. They will never forget the wonderful people. So, how can you help them? Make them feel welcome here. In their new life. Allow them to recognize that you are there for them. That you love and care about them. Help them know that they are normal. That they have changed and that they have a great spirit.
Leaving for a mission is hard, but coming home from a mission may be harder. For 18 months or 2 years their life has been dedicated 100% to other people. They did not think about themselves, their future, or their needs hardly at all. Now, being back in the big old world, they feel like fish who has been taken out of water. Flopping around. Trying to find air. Trying to find some escape. Trying to find somewhere they fit in. If this fish does not get new water it will die. So help them. Love them. That is all they need.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Thoughts, Hopes, and Prayers for Newtown
I've had a lot to say in regards to the tragedy that happened today, so I decided to put all my thoughts down somewhere. Here seemed like a good spot.
In Moroni chapter 8 verse 17, we learn that little children shall receive salvation in Christ. "And I am filled with acharity, which is everlasting love; wherefore, all children are alike unto me; wherefore, I love little children with a perfect love; and they are all alike and partakers of salvation." I know the children who lost their lives today are in the arms of Jesus.
The lives of children are so precious. I work with elementary schoolers everyday and the thought of anything happening to any of them hurts my heart. I have only sincere empathy for the families affected and the community surrounding the school. In an effort to show that empathy I share my testimony that there is life after death. I know that you will be reunited with your beautiful children again. I know that the time here apart from them can and will be tough, but through prayer and sincere trust in the Lord's plan, you will be able to overcome that sorrow and return to a happy existence.
On Monday, I participated in an active shooter training. I was briefed on what to do and how to react if something were to happen where I work. I find it frightening to think this could have been my work and I could have been the one responsible for the lives of children. Through this fear I find comfort in knowing I'm prepared. I am not saying teachers at this school were not, because I'm positive they were, it just makes me feel better knowing that because I am prepared, I do not have to fear.
My last thought is one many of you might find strange. It is in regards to the man who decided to take the lives of these precious children this morning. I have heard many say they wish he were able to suffer more, or that he rots in hell, or is doomed to a miserable afterlife. They say he's full of evil and they cannot comprehend how he could be so cruel. I don't pretend to know any of those answers. I am not advocating that what he did was right. It was not. I can however, feel sorry for him. A man who so unjustly takes the lives of innocent children, his own mother, and then takes his own life must be tortured in some way. I am not saying he is insane or making up excuses, I'm certainly not justifying his acts, but I'm hoping we, as a nation and world, can remember the principle of forgiveness.
I think President Uchtdorf sums up my feelings towards this man in his talk about Mercy. He says, "Forgiving ourselves and others is not easy. In fact, for most of us it requires a major change in our attitude and way of thinking—even a change of heart. But there is good news. This “mighty change” of heart is exactly what the gospel ofJesus Christ is designed to bring into our lives.
In Moroni chapter 8 verse 17, we learn that little children shall receive salvation in Christ. "And I am filled with acharity, which is everlasting love; wherefore, all children are alike unto me; wherefore, I love little children with a perfect love; and they are all alike and partakers of salvation." I know the children who lost their lives today are in the arms of Jesus.
The lives of children are so precious. I work with elementary schoolers everyday and the thought of anything happening to any of them hurts my heart. I have only sincere empathy for the families affected and the community surrounding the school. In an effort to show that empathy I share my testimony that there is life after death. I know that you will be reunited with your beautiful children again. I know that the time here apart from them can and will be tough, but through prayer and sincere trust in the Lord's plan, you will be able to overcome that sorrow and return to a happy existence.
On Monday, I participated in an active shooter training. I was briefed on what to do and how to react if something were to happen where I work. I find it frightening to think this could have been my work and I could have been the one responsible for the lives of children. Through this fear I find comfort in knowing I'm prepared. I am not saying teachers at this school were not, because I'm positive they were, it just makes me feel better knowing that because I am prepared, I do not have to fear.
My last thought is one many of you might find strange. It is in regards to the man who decided to take the lives of these precious children this morning. I have heard many say they wish he were able to suffer more, or that he rots in hell, or is doomed to a miserable afterlife. They say he's full of evil and they cannot comprehend how he could be so cruel. I don't pretend to know any of those answers. I am not advocating that what he did was right. It was not. I can however, feel sorry for him. A man who so unjustly takes the lives of innocent children, his own mother, and then takes his own life must be tortured in some way. I am not saying he is insane or making up excuses, I'm certainly not justifying his acts, but I'm hoping we, as a nation and world, can remember the principle of forgiveness.
I think President Uchtdorf sums up my feelings towards this man in his talk about Mercy. He says, "Forgiving ourselves and others is not easy. In fact, for most of us it requires a major change in our attitude and way of thinking—even a change of heart. But there is good news. This “mighty change” of heart is exactly what the gospel ofJesus Christ is designed to bring into our lives.
How is it done? Through the love of God.
When our hearts are filled with the love of God, something good and pure happens to us. We “keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous. For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world.”
The more we allow the love of God to govern our minds and emotions—the more we allow our love for our Heavenly Father to swell within our hearts—the easier it is to love others with the pure love of Christ. As we open our hearts to the glowing dawn of the love of God, the darkness and cold of animosity and envy will eventually fade.
As always, Christ is our exemplar. In His teachings as in His life, He showed us the way. He forgave the wicked, the vulgar, and those who sought to hurt and to do Him harm.
Jesus said it is easy to love those who love us; even the wicked can do that. But Jesus Christ taught a higher law. His words echo through the centuries and are meant for us today. They are meant for all who desire to be His disciples. They are meant for you and me: “Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.”
When our hearts are filled with the love of God, we become “kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving [each other], even as God for Christ’s sake [forgave us].”
The pure love of Christ can remove the scales of resentment and wrath from our eyes, allowing us to see others the way our Heavenly Father sees us: as flawed and imperfect mortals who have potential and worth far beyond our capacity to imagine. Because God loves us so much, we too must love and forgive each other."
Christ forgave the meanest and most evil seeming of men. He even forgave those who hung him on a cross to die. As I say my prayers before bed tonight, I'm praying not only for the comfort and support for those families, but for the man who took their lives. Through the mercy of Christ I'm forgiven daily and that same mercy can be shown to all. It's my heavenly fathers place to judge and I know the punishment that will be given to this man will be just.
Some may read this and think I'm choosing that mans side. Some may think I don't realize just how terrible the grief these families feel is. Some might even say I'm overly optimistic and blinded by religion. To these comments I say one thing: I know that my Heavenly Father has a plan that makes tragedies like these make sense. I know those sweet children are now in Heaven with Christ. I know that through the Mercy of Christ justice for this man's sins will be met. I know that these families will once again be reunited. I have faith that even though there is bad in the world today and life can be cut short by so many tragedies and in so many ways, faith in Christ will get us through.
This is a time for us to band together. This is a time for America to say "we are ONE nation under God" this is a time to turn to prayer and service and spread the love of God to all. This is a time to mourn and grieve but most importantly it's a time to overcome.
Christ forgave the meanest and most evil seeming of men. He even forgave those who hung him on a cross to die. As I say my prayers before bed tonight, I'm praying not only for the comfort and support for those families, but for the man who took their lives. Through the mercy of Christ I'm forgiven daily and that same mercy can be shown to all. It's my heavenly fathers place to judge and I know the punishment that will be given to this man will be just.
Some may read this and think I'm choosing that mans side. Some may think I don't realize just how terrible the grief these families feel is. Some might even say I'm overly optimistic and blinded by religion. To these comments I say one thing: I know that my Heavenly Father has a plan that makes tragedies like these make sense. I know those sweet children are now in Heaven with Christ. I know that through the Mercy of Christ justice for this man's sins will be met. I know that these families will once again be reunited. I have faith that even though there is bad in the world today and life can be cut short by so many tragedies and in so many ways, faith in Christ will get us through.
This is a time for us to band together. This is a time for America to say "we are ONE nation under God" this is a time to turn to prayer and service and spread the love of God to all. This is a time to mourn and grieve but most importantly it's a time to overcome.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
El Campo Esta Blanco: Mision Peru Lima Este
Title Translation: The field is white, Peru Lima East Mission.
Well, I better crank out my Spanish books and start reviewing because pretty soon Spanish will be all I speak! I'm really really stoked. I will be serving a mission in Lima Peru in the East mission. I leave January 9th for the Provo MTC where I will learn the basics of Spanish and teaching and then go into the CCM which is an abbreviation for Centro Capacitacional Misonal. This is the equivalent of the MTC, but quite a smaller operation and a much more of an immersion into the culture and language.
I am SO excited!
Anyways, A lot has happened in the past month or so of my life. First, my best pal got a mission call. He's going to Russia! Right now he's in the MTC and doing great! Woot! I got my call! [PERU!!!] And I leave in 69 days! My job changed and I now work less hours and more front desk. I've visited Logan twice, the last time being where I said goodbye to Logan... (sorta... I might sneak another visit in...maybe) Then I got in my FIRST car accident. It wasn't a big dealio, but the story is crazy! (this happened back in September) First I had been awake since like 2:30 in the morning. I had to catch an early flight to Vegas (early meaning I got here at 6:30 am.) I had to work at 8:30, so I made sure to get a shower. I skipped breakfast because I felt like I should leave for work early. I left about 20 minutes early. On my way to work I ran into the back of someone. This lady was so sweet. She didn't speak English and I'm not 100% sure she even understood what was happening but she chose to just walk away and we parted ways. I was so relieved. She even told me it would be okay and that I should have a good day. The lord works in mysterious ways.
I also went through the temple. What a neat thing that was! I love that place! It's SO amazing. Those of you who are working on being able to go through the temple, continue that trek. You won't regret it. I also finished teaching the new member lessons to the Gonzalez family! They are SO sweet. Every time one of them gets up to bear their testimony in church I just feel happy inside. I also started teaching another family in my ward. They have a 5 year old girl who is so full of energy! Every lesson she sits on my lap and plays with my scriptures. She is smart too and is learning about Jesus! I just love missionary work. I can't wait to get out there and serve!
I have always loved holidays, but I feel like I like them a bit more this year. Maybe it's because I need a distraction so I don't get too anxious, but I really love them! I am so glad I get to spend this season with my family!
Life is good my friends, life is good! :)
Anyways, A lot has happened in the past month or so of my life. First, my best pal got a mission call. He's going to Russia! Right now he's in the MTC and doing great! Woot! I got my call! [PERU!!!] And I leave in 69 days! My job changed and I now work less hours and more front desk. I've visited Logan twice, the last time being where I said goodbye to Logan... (sorta... I might sneak another visit in...maybe) Then I got in my FIRST car accident. It wasn't a big dealio, but the story is crazy! (this happened back in September) First I had been awake since like 2:30 in the morning. I had to catch an early flight to Vegas (early meaning I got here at 6:30 am.) I had to work at 8:30, so I made sure to get a shower. I skipped breakfast because I felt like I should leave for work early. I left about 20 minutes early. On my way to work I ran into the back of someone. This lady was so sweet. She didn't speak English and I'm not 100% sure she even understood what was happening but she chose to just walk away and we parted ways. I was so relieved. She even told me it would be okay and that I should have a good day. The lord works in mysterious ways.
I also went through the temple. What a neat thing that was! I love that place! It's SO amazing. Those of you who are working on being able to go through the temple, continue that trek. You won't regret it. I also finished teaching the new member lessons to the Gonzalez family! They are SO sweet. Every time one of them gets up to bear their testimony in church I just feel happy inside. I also started teaching another family in my ward. They have a 5 year old girl who is so full of energy! Every lesson she sits on my lap and plays with my scriptures. She is smart too and is learning about Jesus! I just love missionary work. I can't wait to get out there and serve!
I have always loved holidays, but I feel like I like them a bit more this year. Maybe it's because I need a distraction so I don't get too anxious, but I really love them! I am so glad I get to spend this season with my family!
Life is good my friends, life is good! :)
Addie and the Castle
This is a short story I wrote the other night just for the sake of writing. It has some metaphorical meaning to it. If you look hard enough I'm sure you could find them! :)
Once upon a land in a time not so far away a sweet little girl named Addie was talking to her dad. In their conversation the topic of being special came up. Addie asked, "Daddy what makes me special?" Her dad took her in his arms, looked into those bright, beautiful eyes and said, "Addie, you are special because you like to smile, you are adorable, you are determined, but Addie, you are the most special because you are a princess." Addie smiled real big and gave her daddy a hug. Then her daddy looked at her and said, "Addie, I'm going to send you away for a little bit now. It's time you learned some lessons and this is the plan for you to do learn those and be the best person you can be. It might not be the easiest plan and there may be times where you feel as if you are completely alone, but you must always remember you are a princess."
Addie was afraid and excited to follow this plan and learn these lessons. she didn't really know what to expect but as she went away she was optimistic. As her journey progressed and it got a bit harder, she met wonderful people. There were also a lot of bad things that happened. Addie began to forget who she was and the things her father told her. Every once in a while she did remember and the wonderful people helped her a lot too. The thing that helped her remember the most was the building that looked like a castle. She often went to the castle to be reminded of her identity of princess, but before entering the castle she had to meet some requirements and reach a certain point where she was ready. Addie worked hard to be able to enter. Finally the day came.
Some of those wonderful people were there with her. They continued to support and encourage her. She entered the castle and was amazed at the beauty of it. She felt so happy and felt peace about everything that she had questioned. She was also told that she would be able to meet the king. As she continued further into the castle she was filled with excitement a bit of nerves. Finally it was time. She stepped into where the king was and tears filled her eyes. Standing in front of her was her father. She ran to hug him and continued to cry remembering all that he had told her. He softly pushed her back and looked into her eyes and said with love that only a father can, "I knew you could make it. I am so proud of you, my princess."
Addie remained in the castle with her father from then on. She loved being able to always remember the princess that she is and she was SO happy to be in the place where she was meant to be. Even though she was truly happy in the castle, she didn't forget the struggles. The things she learned helped her. They lead her to appreciate the beauty of the castle. Addie spent her time from then on reminding everyone she came in contact with that they too could be a princess. She was often seen helping those around her who were having a hard time, lifting them up knowing that one day, they might have the opportunity to enter into this castle and feel the way she feels. Addie's journey was tough, but the lessons she learned were worth it.
Never forget who you are. Never forget where you come from. Just like Addie you too are royalty. Life is meant to be tough. There are things all around that cause us to forget who we are and what our end goal is, but when we remember- when we truly are able to be reminded of this divine nature, that is when we are happiest.
Always remember who you are. No matter where you are in life right now, someone out there loves you. Remember that and everything else will fall into place. And, as always, keep smiling. :)
Once upon a land in a time not so far away a sweet little girl named Addie was talking to her dad. In their conversation the topic of being special came up. Addie asked, "Daddy what makes me special?" Her dad took her in his arms, looked into those bright, beautiful eyes and said, "Addie, you are special because you like to smile, you are adorable, you are determined, but Addie, you are the most special because you are a princess." Addie smiled real big and gave her daddy a hug. Then her daddy looked at her and said, "Addie, I'm going to send you away for a little bit now. It's time you learned some lessons and this is the plan for you to do learn those and be the best person you can be. It might not be the easiest plan and there may be times where you feel as if you are completely alone, but you must always remember you are a princess."
Addie was afraid and excited to follow this plan and learn these lessons. she didn't really know what to expect but as she went away she was optimistic. As her journey progressed and it got a bit harder, she met wonderful people. There were also a lot of bad things that happened. Addie began to forget who she was and the things her father told her. Every once in a while she did remember and the wonderful people helped her a lot too. The thing that helped her remember the most was the building that looked like a castle. She often went to the castle to be reminded of her identity of princess, but before entering the castle she had to meet some requirements and reach a certain point where she was ready. Addie worked hard to be able to enter. Finally the day came.
Some of those wonderful people were there with her. They continued to support and encourage her. She entered the castle and was amazed at the beauty of it. She felt so happy and felt peace about everything that she had questioned. She was also told that she would be able to meet the king. As she continued further into the castle she was filled with excitement a bit of nerves. Finally it was time. She stepped into where the king was and tears filled her eyes. Standing in front of her was her father. She ran to hug him and continued to cry remembering all that he had told her. He softly pushed her back and looked into her eyes and said with love that only a father can, "I knew you could make it. I am so proud of you, my princess."
Addie remained in the castle with her father from then on. She loved being able to always remember the princess that she is and she was SO happy to be in the place where she was meant to be. Even though she was truly happy in the castle, she didn't forget the struggles. The things she learned helped her. They lead her to appreciate the beauty of the castle. Addie spent her time from then on reminding everyone she came in contact with that they too could be a princess. She was often seen helping those around her who were having a hard time, lifting them up knowing that one day, they might have the opportunity to enter into this castle and feel the way she feels. Addie's journey was tough, but the lessons she learned were worth it.
Never forget who you are. Never forget where you come from. Just like Addie you too are royalty. Life is meant to be tough. There are things all around that cause us to forget who we are and what our end goal is, but when we remember- when we truly are able to be reminded of this divine nature, that is when we are happiest.
Always remember who you are. No matter where you are in life right now, someone out there loves you. Remember that and everything else will fall into place. And, as always, keep smiling. :)
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Here's to You!
Doctrine and Covenants 121:9 Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and Friendly hands.
So I just got back from a wonderful venture to Logan and I just have a really happy heart right now! Yesterday I was sitting in a car with 3 really awesome people waiting for a fourth awesome person to come play and all the sudden I just needed to go for a walk. That sounds super funny, and I really wasn't sure what was making me feel the need to walk but I got out and ventured down a cute little road in Hyde Park. As I was on this road walking I began to cry. Not sad tears but happy tears. I didn't really know what was happening because I've never just cried from being so happy. Then the scripture at the top of this post popped into my head, I read it the other day while studying about the priesthood and Joseph Smith and I just felt so great inside. The lord put great people in my life. Amazing friends I used to only dream about. I've never felt what I felt yesterday, a sense of belonging, a sense of mutual caring, and a sense of true grattitude and love for the people around me. I wish I could find the words to describe this level of feeling, but I can't. I only know one thing, there will always be people out there you bond with. People who get your quirky sense of humor. Who are okay with you being yourself and who will always stand by you with warm hearts and friendly hands. So here's to you friends! Thanks for an awesome weekend, for letting me be myself, and for being there when I need you, even when you don't know I do! :)
Find friends like the ones I have and I can guarantee there will never be a frown on your face, it will always be a smile! :)
So I just got back from a wonderful venture to Logan and I just have a really happy heart right now! Yesterday I was sitting in a car with 3 really awesome people waiting for a fourth awesome person to come play and all the sudden I just needed to go for a walk. That sounds super funny, and I really wasn't sure what was making me feel the need to walk but I got out and ventured down a cute little road in Hyde Park. As I was on this road walking I began to cry. Not sad tears but happy tears. I didn't really know what was happening because I've never just cried from being so happy. Then the scripture at the top of this post popped into my head, I read it the other day while studying about the priesthood and Joseph Smith and I just felt so great inside. The lord put great people in my life. Amazing friends I used to only dream about. I've never felt what I felt yesterday, a sense of belonging, a sense of mutual caring, and a sense of true grattitude and love for the people around me. I wish I could find the words to describe this level of feeling, but I can't. I only know one thing, there will always be people out there you bond with. People who get your quirky sense of humor. Who are okay with you being yourself and who will always stand by you with warm hearts and friendly hands. So here's to you friends! Thanks for an awesome weekend, for letting me be myself, and for being there when I need you, even when you don't know I do! :)
Find friends like the ones I have and I can guarantee there will never be a frown on your face, it will always be a smile! :)
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Back on the Bike: Getting to the Temple
So you know those days where nothing seems to be going your way? Days where the vacation you planned gets cut in half and the job you thought would last you a few more months is ending in two weeks? Today was one of those days for me. Is there anything you do on days like this where it just seems impossible to be happy and remain positive? For me I try to clear my head. I do that lots of different ways and today I went on a bike ride. You see, I'm preparing to serve a mission and one of the suggestions my bishop gave me was to ride my bike more. So, today after relaxing a bit after work I decided to ride to the temple. It's about a 5 mile ride from my house and uphill most of the way. I started out and noticed it was getting stormy. There was a breeze and I was excited it wouldn't be so hot. I took my brother's bike today and after I got started I realized the gears don't work. [for those of you not familiar with bike riding, switching gears, especially when you are going to be going uphill is important for a smoother ride] After realizing this ride would be a bit harder than a normal one I had a decision to make. I could keep going with my original goal of getting to the temple, or I could shorten the ride and go home. Normally I would have just gone home after a shorter ride, but this ride was different. It was different because I had a goal in mind.
Halfway through the ride an analogy of life came to my mind. It was something that kept me going and helped me put things in perspective. I began to liken my bike ride to life. In life our goal is getting to the temple. We live worthy so that we can be blessed by blessings that happen there. The goal for my bike ride was the temple. As I began the ride I was so excited. It was one of the longest rides I've done and it had been awhile since I had ridden. It felt good to push the pedals and move closer to the goal. I got to the park by my house and began the first hill of the journey. This is where I realized the gears on my bike were broken. With each push of the pedal I could feel the resistance of the bike. Since I was just starting out it wasn't too hard just yet. I got to the top of the hill and made the turn onto a busy street. I kept going down this street and was concerned with the upcoming intersection. I didn't want to wait for the crosswalk so I began to cross. As I was about to go into the street a car rushed past me. I decided that going to the crosswalk was probably a better idea. This reminded me of the times in life where your plans don't match up with the Savior's. I wanted to cross not in the crosswalk, but there was an unseen danger. Sometimes the lord sees what we don't and we need to follow his plans instead of ours!
I continued on my journey. I won't say it was the easiest. In fact, I walked my bike a few times because of the extreme wind and steep hills, but as I rounded that last corner and I watched the sunset from next to the temple I felt so great. I was amazed by how it felt for me to reach my goal. I was so happy to be there that I didn't want to leave. That's what being at the temple brings. It brings so much happiness and joy. That's what reaching our goals bring. As I was riding home, I watched as lightening periodically hit all around the valley. It was beautiful. This ride really made me happy and I definitely enjoyed it.
There are so many times in life where it's just so hard for a positive attitude to remain in tact. It's hard for us to see our goal and really truly follow a path that will get us there but we need to focus on the things that really matter. We need to remember that we do have a goal and the path to getting there isn't necessarily ours, but when we trust that the path is right it will get us there. Riding my bike to the temple helped me to clear my head and realize what's really important. So, take away from this post? We don't always have control over the situation at hand. Sometimes we just have to make sure that we trust in our Savior and realize that it will be okay in the end. I hope everyone can find something that clears their head and makes them happy on a bad day. Remember that it will all be okay in the end, but most importantly, remember that no one likes a frowny face so change it to a smile, and I promise it will all get better.
Halfway through the ride an analogy of life came to my mind. It was something that kept me going and helped me put things in perspective. I began to liken my bike ride to life. In life our goal is getting to the temple. We live worthy so that we can be blessed by blessings that happen there. The goal for my bike ride was the temple. As I began the ride I was so excited. It was one of the longest rides I've done and it had been awhile since I had ridden. It felt good to push the pedals and move closer to the goal. I got to the park by my house and began the first hill of the journey. This is where I realized the gears on my bike were broken. With each push of the pedal I could feel the resistance of the bike. Since I was just starting out it wasn't too hard just yet. I got to the top of the hill and made the turn onto a busy street. I kept going down this street and was concerned with the upcoming intersection. I didn't want to wait for the crosswalk so I began to cross. As I was about to go into the street a car rushed past me. I decided that going to the crosswalk was probably a better idea. This reminded me of the times in life where your plans don't match up with the Savior's. I wanted to cross not in the crosswalk, but there was an unseen danger. Sometimes the lord sees what we don't and we need to follow his plans instead of ours!
I continued on my journey. I won't say it was the easiest. In fact, I walked my bike a few times because of the extreme wind and steep hills, but as I rounded that last corner and I watched the sunset from next to the temple I felt so great. I was amazed by how it felt for me to reach my goal. I was so happy to be there that I didn't want to leave. That's what being at the temple brings. It brings so much happiness and joy. That's what reaching our goals bring. As I was riding home, I watched as lightening periodically hit all around the valley. It was beautiful. This ride really made me happy and I definitely enjoyed it.
There are so many times in life where it's just so hard for a positive attitude to remain in tact. It's hard for us to see our goal and really truly follow a path that will get us there but we need to focus on the things that really matter. We need to remember that we do have a goal and the path to getting there isn't necessarily ours, but when we trust that the path is right it will get us there. Riding my bike to the temple helped me to clear my head and realize what's really important. So, take away from this post? We don't always have control over the situation at hand. Sometimes we just have to make sure that we trust in our Savior and realize that it will be okay in the end. I hope everyone can find something that clears their head and makes them happy on a bad day. Remember that it will all be okay in the end, but most importantly, remember that no one likes a frowny face so change it to a smile, and I promise it will all get better.
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