The Time, The Time, Who Has the Time? :)

Time. Such a small and simple 4 letter word, but such a large meaningful thing to take in. It is what is on my mind today. In fact, there was a very strong thought in my mind that I could not go without thinking about. This thought was, "It's time to manage your time." I have felt a bit stretched out with all the things I have to do and the amount of time I have to do it in. This has become a serious problem. I wish I could tell you how I can fix this, but I really don't know yet. It is something I plan to work on and in the future I will give you an update.
Another thing that has been on my mind is how precious time really is. If I spend ten minutes on something that is a time waster...facebook... then that is ten minutes I can never get back. Really makes you think about what is important. Recently there have been a few things that I have had to choose between. For example, do I stay up late building relationships with friends, or go to bed and allow myself time to feel refreshed? It's a tough thing to be constantly aware of what you are doing with your time, but try to think about it. How much happier could you be if you decided to take a walk instead of playing video games? Or to study your assignment instead of stalking on Facebook. This is also something I need to work on. Life goes by quickly, so really live each moment in a worthwhile way. (PS, I hate when people say live each moment as your last because honestly if this was my last moment I would be having some epic adventure and in all reality your life cannot be made up of very epic constant moments, so if you live each moment in a worthwhile way then your life will be fulfilling)
My last thought on time, let it be on your side. Time is something I used to hate. I am not very patient and I still have issues waiting, but sometimes waiting is necessary. If you have never stood in line and waited for something you really wanted and then been totally satisfied with that waiting, you can never appreciate that thing fully. Also, you cannot appreciate instant gratification to its fullest if you have never waited. Waiting can be fun. If you are waiting for something big, enjoy life and the lessons it teaches while you are waiting. If you are waiting for something simple, learn to enjoy this wait by entertaining yourself, meeting new people, and just enjoying having time to anticipate the good. Time can be your friend. Rushing and fast-pacedness (totally made that word up) are not always the best. So enjoy the wait and time will become your ally in life.

Time is interesting. It is hard to manage, hard to prioritize, hard to make worthwhile, but can be your ally, friend, and teacher in life. Don't hate time and time won't hate you. Realize that it's time to manage your time and begin realizing what you need to do in order to make your time is spent in the best way possible.
Remember, no one likes a frowny face. Turn it around and smile some more! :)

Two posts in one week, say what?

If you're like me and can't read tons cuz you get bored, feel free to skip down to the advice at the bottom. I won't be offended. I promise!

So, I don't have much time before I rush off to pass my German test, but I just wanna share a few thoughts regarding a cemetery. It is Halloween and all. So recently I have been constantly getting asked if I was alright. At first it was by like a billion people. Then it was by just the few who know me very well. For some reason all these questions lead me to two realizations. The first one was that something really was off, despite my answer and the second was that people truly care. Those are the two topics for today. 

So, Something being off: Well I knew that something was missing, but i didn't know what. It was really hard to figure out because, honestly that has never happened to me before. Well, as I was thinking about how to get back on track and what was missing, I realized something. I hadn't been doing one of the things that makes me the happiest. I learned in class a couple weeks ago that we each have eight basic needs in life, but to go along with that we each have things in our life that we need. Now, I'm not talking needs like the I need to eat a banana before work everyday needs I am talking like I need to have me time or I need to talk with a certain friend needs. My personal needs had to do with reading. Sounds weird right? Well it's not. I love to read uplifting materials. Generally these materials are religious, but not always. I read self-help books, joke books, and just positive things that put a smile on my face. Recently, because of my busy life, I have neglected that reading. Well no more. If you love doing something and it makes you happy then do it. Don't say it's not a priority because it is. You are a priority. Sure there are other things in life that are also important but you need to realize you are also important and that there are things you need to do for yourself. :)

Now, onto the second. People really do care: A few years back I thought that I knew what it meant to have someone care about you. I had a friend that cared and made sure I had what I needed and that I was happy, but there was something missing. What was missing was feeling. Recently, I have had multiple friends questions me and how I am doing. They showed that they cared. It was really a great thing for me to realize. Caring is great. Along with knowing others care you need to care for yourself as well. I always set super high standards for myself and it always brings me down. I realized today that no one expects me to be perfect. No one expects me to be anything other than the best me I can be, and that my friends, is a great feeling. 

So things to take away from this today (this will be helpful if you didn't feel like reading all that jazz)

1. Do something you like to do. Don't worry about how it will effect the other areas of your life, or what people will think because that doesn't matter. What matters is you. If you are doing something that makes you happy, then everything else will fall into place. So get your priorities straight and realize that you need to take care of yourself as well. 

2. Let people care. Let them into your life and let them ask if you are alright. Realize that there is emotion behind this and the emotion is concern. It is not a stale, annoying, or invalidated question. Appreciate the care and accept it. 

2.5. Care about yourself. Realize that you cannot do it all one-hundred percent perfectly. Realize that no one cares if you can't do it perfectly and no one expects you to. Don't give yourself limits you cannot achieve. Allow yourself to realize that the best is all anyone wants, and you doing your best is all anyone needs. Be your best self and that will always be good enough. 

Last but never least, no one likes a frowny face, so smile. If you do, you will be more atttractive, happier, and have more friends... and that fellow bloggers, is all anyone can ask for! :)

SLC AG is Poppin'

Well a whole lot has happened in my life recently. I was elected as Area Government (on campus housing student council type thing...) president and have been SO busy! I sure do love doing this! I have probably the greatest advisor in the history of advisors. This is no exaggeration. Brice Colby is his name, and zombies are his game... hahaha! He is not only one way cool kid, but one very entertaining person. Despite how much I tease him about different things, he sure is one of the greatest, most put together leaders I have ever met. I am so excited to finally get into the nitty gritty of AG this year and start to become the best leader I can be while helping those in my AG also become the greatest leaders they can. :) Basically SLC AG is poppin! :) Speaking of AG, there is a lovely little thing we do in the fall called the AG retreat. It is one of the most life changing, eye opening, emotionally draining weekends you will ever live through. I know this sounds super not like a lot of fun, but it is actually quite the opposite. This is my second AG retreat I have attended and I really was sort of confused after leaving it. I really didn't know how to feel. Last year I was so uplifted and ready to move on and this year I was just confused. It took a while... okay like maybe 6 hours... after leaving to help me feel that uplifted feeling. Emotions are so crazy. They are always there and always so very prominent. You can feel so much happiness, sadness, or anger and then five minutes later feel the complete opposite. I used to say I wish we didn't feel. I wish that we didn't have emotions, but they are necessary. You could never care for someone without emotions. Never learn to control anger. Never learn to suppress jealousy. Never learn to   love or be happy. Most importantly, we would never learn to or be able to connect with other people. Emotions are necessary. They make us who we are and allow us to be what we need to be.

That was a tangent I really didn't need to go off on. Basically after the AG retreat I have a few new goals. Those goals include getting to truly know people. Less poor me and more helping. More real friends and less superficial ones. Less hidden emotion and more shared feelings. Less hostility and more friendliness. Write poetry again. Less distractions and more focus. Basically there is still a whole lot I need to work on, a whole lot that can help me improve the person that I am and a whole lot of emotions that I need to accept and allow to happen.

So, piece of advice for staying happy this blog is, don't shut yourself off. Don't close yourself down. Show some emotion. Share a problem with a friend. Allow people to care about you. You cannot get through life alone so don't try. Even if you think there is no one out there who cares, there always is. Next time someone asks "what's wrong?" or "Are you alright?" give them an answer. Let them be your friend. You will be happier if you do this and that my friends is a promise.

As always, I hope you enjoyed my random array of thoughts and emotions. Remember, No one likes a frowny face!